我突然累了..我又累了..我实在不能再忍
了...我讨厌我现在的学校可是还是要坚强的面
对...我突然好想念在美中的日子.拥有一圈很要好
的朋友..可以谈心事..拍拍马屁..一起玩得超开心
的!生活过得非常的充实!我实在很累了~

我一直以来太高估我自己了.我还以为我能够很坚强得面对种种难题~

我还以为我能把自己的情绪处理得非常棒的,

原来我真的 了,

好累..

好想休息一下,

好想有一个肩旁可以依靠~

就算是一分钟就好.

paintball with kia maia

went for paintball yesterday,it was fun!  completely forget about those sad things when i was playing it completely turn my mind off! paintful as well but it was super fun!

I woke up today found myself with wet eyes, I start to cry even harder. I hate myself for being like that. I'm not sure what's the feeling of me right now but I know 1 thing for sure - I'm hurt! I've always thought I can be the strongest one,the firm ones. But after going through so many stuff in my life I found out that I was too proud of myself.I wasn't that strong at all,I get influence easily..I'm not firm as well,all these while I've been trying so hard to cover all my insecurities that i hide. I basically still don't understand myself ..i think no one could.I thought i could always be the happy Griselda waif big goofy smile on my face,but I've overestimate myself,I couldn't be the Griselda with laughter all around every time.I dunno why God choose to put me in this kind of fate,I kept questioning although i know I shouldn't.He gave me a perfect start of my life,but he strikes me with challenges in the middle.I'm not sure how will my end be..I might stand up and fight for it;I might just gave up easily..I'm not sure yet..but i will still try my best to earn my crowns.I know nothing last forever in this earth but human tends to fight for everything in this earth.I guess I'm still one of them who still choose the bad choice of fighting for something which is not eternal.Someone told me life is not about the length,it's all about the process of how you fight for.

Auckland Trip day 4

It's like a habit for us..bust stop is like a studio or something we'll take different pics at the bus stop everyday!!!I'll remember you rockfield street bus stop!!!

Auckland Trip Day 2 @ 3

Day 2

Went for yam char in the city,was so much better than in wellington! well that's just the beginning! we ordered like 7-8 stuff for 2 person!!

Was exhausted after shopping for the WHOLE DAY at queen street

Day 3

Was caught posing again! ahaha! well this bridge is a very artistic bridge...after few discussion we decided to call it metal stick bridge!



We decided to try Auckland ice cream since it''s so windy! I basically think it was the best time for ice cream. 
At first we when to newmarket for pool with Andy and David then after that we decided to go for a light walk at mission bay! well actually it was good Friday so ALL the shops were CLOSED!
basically was take in the bus

there's 1 thing really good about going out with smallbell is that you don't have to bring any camera around you! She'll always start taking pictures randomly! All you need to do is just to stick ur head into the shots! Easy! 

Was taking random pictures with smallbell at the bus stop while waiting for the bus. Then we got really attached to this pile...ahahha...then start to post really random pose!

auckland trip Day 1

Basically went for karaoke at mini cafe the first thin after reaching Auckland! 

After that went to time zone (i guess) for neoprints! Wow it's been AGES I've not been to those place for neoprints!It's a bit awkward i should say..BUT it was nice and a very nice experience!

being random again

During Classes...ahaha...was caught talking!

Greetings~

Okey i'm going to post up the nasi goreng that I cooked on monday