Friday, August 28, 2009

Imiss everything
I miss hectic life
I miss schooldays
I miss friends
I miss home


and ..the most I miss is....


dancing


I wish i could dance again

Monday, August 17, 2009

Used to

I miss talking to you like how we used to..

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

stay back or move on?

things just happenned randomely in life

I'm not sure how i really felt right now

I'm numb

all i know is that i live my life everyday trying my best to make myself occupied

should i move on or stay back?


Saturday, May 23, 2009

别再为他流泪

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆别再为他流泪

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

Thursday, May 7, 2009

献给爱我的朋友

我真的很感激你们一直以来对我的坚持和性任.
谢谢你们总在我心情最低落时,给我最温暖得爱,鼓励...还有一直默默地支持我...
虽然我们距离很遥远,
可是我们的心好像从不曾离开过一样.

我真的很爱你们!
真的很开心有这个缘分遇到你们~

griz

Sunday, April 26, 2009

我突然累了..我又累了..我实在不能再忍
了...我讨厌我现在的学校可是还是要坚强的面
对...我突然好想念在美中的日子.拥有一圈很要好
的朋友..可以谈心事..拍拍马屁..一起玩得超开心
的!生活过得非常的充实!我实在很累了~

我一直以来太高估我自己了.我还以为我能够很坚强得面对种种难题~
我还以为我能把自己的情绪处理得非常棒的,

原来我真的 了,
好累..
好想休息一下,
好想有一个肩旁可以依靠~
就算是一分钟就好.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

paintball with kia maia




went for paintball yesterday,it was fun!  completely forget about those sad things when i was playing it completely turn my mind off! paintful as well but it was super fun!

Monday, April 20, 2009

I woke up today found myself with wet eyes, I start to cry even harder. I hate myself for being like that. I'm not sure what's the feeling of me right now but I know 1 thing for sure - I'm hurt! I've always thought I can be the strongest one,the firm ones. But after going through so many stuff in my life I found out that I was too proud of myself.I wasn't that strong at all,I get influence easily..I'm not firm as well,all these while I've been trying so hard to cover all my insecurities that i hide. I basically still don't understand myself ..i think no one could.I thought i could always be the happy Griselda waif big goofy smile on my face,but I've overestimate myself,I couldn't be the Griselda with laughter all around every time.I dunno why God choose to put me in this kind of fate,I kept questioning although i know I shouldn't.He gave me a perfect start of my life,but he strikes me with challenges in the middle.I'm not sure how will my end be..I might stand up and fight for it;I might just gave up easily..I'm not sure yet..but i will still try my best to earn my crowns.I know nothing last forever in this earth but human tends to fight for everything in this earth.I guess I'm still one of them who still choose the bad choice of fighting for something which is not eternal.Someone told me life is not about the length,it's all about the process of how you fight for.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Auckland Trip day 4



It's like a habit for us..bust stop is like a studio or something we'll take different pics at the bus stop everyday!!!I'll remember you rockfield street bus stop!!!

Auckland Trip Day 2 @ 3

Day 2
Went for yam char in the city,was so much better than in wellington! well that's just the beginning! we ordered like 7-8 stuff for 2 person!!

Was exhausted after shopping for the WHOLE DAY at queen street

Day 3
Was caught posing again! ahaha! well this bridge is a very artistic bridge...after few discussion we decided to call it metal stick bridge!



We decided to try Auckland ice cream since it''s so windy! I basically think it was the best time for ice cream. 
At first we when to newmarket for pool with Andy and David then after that we decided to go for a light walk at mission bay! well actually it was good Friday so ALL the shops were CLOSED!
basically was take in the bus
there's 1 thing really good about going out with smallbell is that you don't have to bring any camera around you! She'll always start taking pictures randomly! All you need to do is just to stick ur head into the shots! Easy! 

Was taking random pictures with smallbell at the bus stop while waiting for the bus. Then we got really attached to this pile...ahahha...then start to post really random pose!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

auckland trip Day 1

Basically went for karaoke at mini cafe the first thin after reaching Auckland! 

After that went to time zone (i guess) for neoprints! Wow it's been AGES I've not been to those place for neoprints!It's a bit awkward i should say..BUT it was nice and a very nice experience!


Friday, April 3, 2009

being random again


During Classes...ahaha...was caught talking!

Greetings~

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


Okey i'm going to post up the nasi goreng that I cooked on monday 

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Random Post!

heya all! I'm basically in the school com lab 1 now! eeha! Okey i'm just being random now...I'm doing economics survey now..so will catch up with you all later when i get back home yea?

griz

Officially!

Okey I've been posting some depressing post! Fine, i should tell you something nicer! Well grizzy officially can COOK nasi goreng dy! Well grizzy cooked a main dish and a starter yesterday as her food technology practical assessment. I choose malaysian cuisine for my dishes. hehe~

Did i ever mention that my food and technology teacher looks incredibly gorgeous! shame to say that me and my korean friend always drool over this teacher! hahhaha...

Something that makes me pround of is that when i present those dishes yesterday my gorgeous teacher praised me twice man! He was like "I'm really pleased of your work! It turns out really good!" He said that twice and praised me! Omg...cant believe the first time doing such a big project still get such good feedback! ayay...

But there's  3 person i seriously need thank! 1st is GOD ! Thank God for blessing me and guide me throughout the whole cooking process! 2d i want to thak my assistant - kim sun ah. She helped me alot ...helped me chopped all the ingredients and wash all the dishes! 3rd i want to thank Renee! She taught me how to cook fried rice! She basically go through all the steps through skype with me! 

thanks!

griz

Okey i'll post up the picture tomorrow ok? I need to get it from my teacher also...

griz

Really Random

My hard disc was broken so I've lost all my songs and pictures. After school,came home as usual turn on my notebook,click on the documents button to check on what i've got in this notebook.Guess what i found this post! I saved it last time bcz i think it's such a sweet post! Had a quick browse through all those beutiful and truthful "essay" ..hahah i really miss those times...those smiles on my face looks so young and happy. I wonder how long have i not been like this ....be just ME 

A monkey’s birthday

in the group of friends that i have,
most of us own pets.

zin has cats;

bellie has pongee;

lala bear has jordan;

and i have [5 dogs and 3 ponds of fishes whose names i am too lazy to type out].

and yet,
although each of us own different pets at home,

all of us share one pet in common.

ever since the dawn of 2007,
we have become proud owners of a certain pet monkey.

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and her name,

is griz.

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griz arrived into our little family on a bright sun-shiny morning of febuary 2007. she came to us as a surprise and none of us thought that we'd get along with the new-comer in such a short period of time. but after a while she warmed up with all of us.

and as time passed, we got along with each other just fine. : )

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she slowly became our family favourite. she's brought so much laughter and smiles into our lives, it's impossible to imagine life without her. the things that she does and the funny things that she says never cease to fill our hearts with joy and love. : )

who knew that such a tiny little thing would become such a dearest treasure to us.

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i have spent more time with this gem than i could have every expected.

my first impression of this little critter is far from what i feel about her now. she is one of those who have taught me not to judge people based on first impressions because what they can do and who they really are can surprise you.

so how is she
 REALLY like, you ask?

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quite frankly, griz is like joy-ride packed in a box.

one of her best charms is making everyone smile with her crazy and silly little antics. and she doesn't act all those out - it comes naturally to her. she may seem like the perfect girl; prim and proper like any other girl out there worth falling for, and yet it's her out-going and happy-go-lucky personality that set her apart from the rest.

that's what makes her so special to us all.

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griz is by far one of the most optimistic people i have ever met.

she has had some dark days in her life, but she faces them with such integrity and strength - it's astounding.

and i admire her for that.

she has gone through so many things, and yet she plasters her face with one of the biggest smiles that anyone could ever throw the world. it's a wonder how someone who looks so fragile can prove to be so much stonger than she may seem.

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our pet monkey has also proven herself worthy when she made us proud in becoming the assistant head deputy of the Special Functions and Finance Department in the School Prefectorial Board.

she's always been a responsible one. dedicated to the bone, she has never let any obstacle pull her down.

in our school, it's been known that people who become part of the prefectorial board would somehow, in one way or another, change due to the political competition going on between the students.

but she is one of those who still stay as she was.

and we love her for that. : )

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my faithful companion whenever there's an education fair going on.



i never need to doubt her trust. i'm blessed to know someone like her whom i can always share my problems and feelings with because she will never judge me like other people would. she would listen to me whenever i need her.

and i would always go an extra mile for her because of it.

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shamelessly rummaging through teachers' drawers in search of free biosilk sanitary pads. XD



our monkey monkey is never afraid to be who she is.

no matter if it comes to being really silly or utterly mad, she just does what she does best - being herself.

she doesn't care about what others think and she doesn't mind what people would say. she would just straight out do whatever she thinks is okay.

she
does not give in to peer pressure. : )

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her prized moment: the day she was freed from the horrors of braces which she endured for 5 years (or more). our monkey's finally got pretty-pretty dentals! : )



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we've all grown together and learned so much about life,
it's impossible having to imagine life without her.

and right here,
right now,

i'm dedicating this post
to one of the most lovable person on the face of this earth.

we love you gao gao monkeyface griz. and don't you ever dare forget that. in time we know that we would go our separate ways in life. but whenever you're feeling alone and down, remember this post and remember us, your family for life.

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thanks griz, for being one of the most cherished friends i could ever ask for.


And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
When we're the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'Cause we were the special two.

-"The Special Two" by Missy Higgins.



p/s griz if you are reading this i know you're lauging you head off because of all the *unique* pictures i have of you here. but with all honestly i think all these pictures in this birthday post may possibly ruin your reputation and image to thousands and hundreds of people who're reading this.

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... but i know you're still going to love me for it.

ngehehehe.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

For I know the plans I have for you , says the LORD . They are plans for good not for disaster,to give you a future and a hope.
In those days when you pray , I will listen 
If you look for me wholeheartedly,you will find me 
Jeremiah 29;11-13

Thursday, March 26, 2009

ahah...okey basically i dint cover much about what i'm learning now yea?
oopsie!

Okey,let's start with 
english:
Analyse a visual or oral text
  • film
  • television production
  • drama production
  • audio performance
  • radio performance
Wide reading
  • 9 books a year
  • non-fiction 
  • fiction
  • short stories
  • article
(basically must have novels from other culture and some from maori author)

Analyse short written texts
  • Poetry
  • short stories
(this includes watching shakespears movie that i couldn't freaking understand)


Economics

  • market situation - competition
  • marginal analysis
  • marginal utility
  • the law of diminishing returns
  • equilbrium of the firm
  • elasticity of market
(basically now we need to conduct a survey of non-price competitions)
where i found myself dont know how to even conduct a real research.there's knowledge for research too..hehe

History
  • European @ maori interaction before 1840
  • European @ maori interaction (pakeha maori)
  • The influence of missionaries
  • The musket wars
(history is the hardest among all those subject i think)

Maths (stats)
  • probability
  • expected value
  • arrangements and selections
  • conditional probability
Food and technology

basically i have to prepare a starter and main OR a main and desert
(hehe,grizzy can cook now~)






Gosh!

hi there, i know what are you thinking now..."wow what makes you update Ur blog huh" ...well whenever i update my blog it means I'll be stressful about something or I'm happy.haha..no other reasons ..well basically i have not had a habit of writing everyday actually. BUT for the sake of my English i have to! and of course for the sake of those who care and curious,worried about me I'll do it for them! 

okie dokie...basically i start to feel the tense of studying here as English is not my 1st language...all i can say it's hard...every subjects are hard...but I'm trying to catch up with the students. whenever i thought of studies here there's a mixture of feelings of disappointment,stress,peer pressure,worried,high hopes. I called it complication! 

I'm afraid I might not achieve what my parents expect me to. And I'll end up disappointing them again~ Not only them and also me myself too.sometimes i really wish that i could actually do whatever i like ..like choosing something i really good at and have more confidence in.But too bad we're living in a reality world ,we couldn't always follow what we desire. well i know I've already made my decision to come here and i should not regret as I'm so blessed compared to others. 

One day, while i was walking alone along the hallway of my school,i heard someone saying that "there's people dying every single minute". I looked in the mirror beside me for some time, whispering to myself . I'm so damn lucky ...although i might not choose what life i want BUT God never let me down. I'm so fortunate that i could even stand here right now looking into the mirror talking to myself, being in where i am now,having such a good opportunity! what am i doing here...feeling sad and still complaining about how life are.Humans always intend to demand things from God but they never know we are God's creation we are nothing without Him, we basically have to right to demand things from Him!Because God loves us so much that he even gave his Only son Jesus Christ to wash away our sins. How awesome is it God's love~

There's one scripture come through my mind...it's on Jeremiah 29;11(i guess) ...I had my plan and future on you...(something like that)  I truly feel this scripture...i believe God wants me to be in New Zealand for high school He must have plans for me! He knows I'll struggle with studies here But he also leads me to join church services here to build up my confidence and wisdom to overcome my studies and loneliness here....

I guess I've nothing to complain after all, God will always be by my side leading me to the right path if I'm lost!

I was lost,
But He found me,
I was weak,
Bu He strengthen me
By his power of love
I shall never be afraid.

griz

Sunday, March 8, 2009

worst nightmare

2 more days to go till everything is over~ what am I going to do? i'm so blardy nervous!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

cuba carnival!

Hi! I'm sos sorry for not updating my blog. haha been busy lately. So there was cuba carnival last last weekend. i went there with a few of my korean friends. yeap having such a great time ! well we went for a movie at the cinema at first then walk around the streets to join the crowds and also play some games from the amussment park ! 






Monday, February 9, 2009

A glimpse of my place ad my life so far

This is the harbour of wellington! Damn the sea is like so clean but it's frezzing cold!
After the sevens on saturday,there's a chinese new year parade again on Sunday! hahah so i tok some pictures ...
These are all those crowds watching the chinese performance.
 There was the sevens which is the rugby game came up last weekend! it was a special day in Wellington and also one of the biggest event in wellington! it's basically people wearing different costumes like (badman spiderman,superman,fairy,and many more). they walked down the streets in the central and have fun! Click these link to wiew those pictures taken by Lyndon Hood
 http://www.scoop.co.nz/stories/HL0902/S00130.htm

Belows ae the place where i stay,friends..
                                                                           front garden
                                                                            Bookshelf
                                                                                                                                        
                                                                      dressing table
                                                                       My wardrobe
                                                                the fire place in my room

                                                                 This is my study desk